Chakkani Aman

 Dear Aman, Never ever develop HATRED this is like a monster will snatch everything you have. In fact, This causes many relationships and knitted bonding breaks. It happened with me too. When I thought about my relationship as a family was so weak cause of me. The great entry of HATRED as entered everything collapsed. Ir-repairable damage. Time is the most mysterious thing I have ever discovered. In a search of winning your mother I got used to the loneliness and it doesn't bother me any more. I have your memories and there would not be a day with out your remembrance. Yesterday, I have been to Jal Vayu Towers a place where we used to live. It is still a great place cause of your memories I have there. I remember the swimming pool we used to go. Swim and go around the place to walk. For a moment I was wondering life was all good and suddenly shattered. CAUSE HATRED. What ever it is till my last breath I will be longing to see you and meet you.  I love you Aman. Daddy loves you...

 Hi Aman, I know for sure time can heal the wounds or scars. December I wanna be home for this christmas. May be we all can eat together and sleep together. Of course, gossip too much. Last night I had a dream may be I am thinking a lot about your mom. I had a text from her saying "BE HOME". I picked my car keys and started driving home. I hope some day I will get a text from her to my surprise. I wish if scars and wounds can heal. B'coz I wanna be home. She really needs me and I wanna be her side to be an unshakable support. But, What to do ? Its ok Time will heal.. All these days my life is like a hell.  With out you all it is like an unfinished story of my life. Your mom the one I really love...... Hoping to meet her some day. The day when I meet her I would want to kiss her and say.... I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH

 Some one asked me Who is chakkani  ----- Aman, Who is your Mom ---------- Aman Who is your Dad ------------ Aman. Who is your favorite ------------- Aman Who is KUKKA PILLA --------------Aman Who is Bangaram ----------------- Aman Dad's best friend ---------------- Aman Most chakkani cheeks --------------- Aman Most Notorious --------------------- Aman Friends for Ever --------------- Aman What do I need in life --------- Aman What can make me happy -------------- Aman Death wish ------------------- Spend a day with Aman What I will swap for the world  --------- Aman Why are you living ------------ Some day I will join the family Most favorite number  ------------ 10 (your birthday 10-10-12) What I am afraid of ? ----------------- If I die with out meeting Aman What makes me mad ----------- Except deepthi - Any one who troubles you - I will finish them off. to be continued

Hi Thalli, Today I am so upset cause I had a bad dream. Then I jumped out of bed to pick up my bible. How are you ? Its been long time I did not get to hear from you. I share a lot about you when I get along in groups/friends and so on...   “ Truly I tell you,”  Jesus replied,  “no one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me and the gospel   30  will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age: homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields—along with persecutions—and in the age to come eternal life." These days my mind stuck on the a memory which has your back ground. When you were a little boy I always wanted you to get into groups or same age peers. When something flares up and goes out of your way. You used to walk out and say " I need no body and I good by all myself". My son, The pain I am going through is much beyond measure. Whatever it is, I still trust in God and you do...